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Swings Reveals Struggle with 12 Billion Won Debt: "I Had Nowhere to Lean On, Friends Left Me"

입력 : 2026.05.11 17:34|수정 : 2026.05.11 17:34


Rapper Swings (real name Moon Ji-hoon) has opened up for the first time about the intense mental anguish and loneliness he experienced while paying off a debt of 12 billion won.

Swings shared his honest feelings during a hypnosis session in a video titled "The Reason Why Swings' Life Is Hard, Found in a Past Life," which was recently released on his YouTube channel, "Egennam Swings."

During the session, Swings began by saying, "I want to escape from this pain. For several years, it has felt like my heart was on fire." He continued, "I had about 12 billion won in debt. It wasn't an investment; to be precise, it was a loan. I took out the loan about five or six years ago to try and grow my company, and the process of paying it back almost drove me crazy. I am grateful that I will have it all paid off by the end of this year, but along with that hope, I also feel like I no longer have the strength to fight." He struggled to hold back tears as he spoke.

Swings particularly confessed to spending difficult times in deep depression, adding, "While running the company, there were many people involved, and complaints arose between us. I feel a deep sense of regret over the relationships that passed through my life, and I feel like I've lost many friends." He added, "I find myself thinking, 'Have I lived my life wrong?' or 'Was it all in vain?' I've been exercising for years, but when I'm not, I push myself by hurling harsh insults at myself," highlighting his fragile mental state.

Swings reflected on himself through a past-life regression hypnosis experience. After describing his past life as a "king in the Joseon Dynasty," he calmly stated after the session, "Moving forward, I want to live by cherishing the people I hold dear even more. I want to reduce my overthinking."

Meanwhile, Swings gained significant attention after finishing as the runner-up on "Show Me the Money Season 2" in 2012. Since then, he has been active in the domestic hip-hop scene, establishing the hip-hop label Just Music in 2014, followed by Indigo Music and AP Alchemy. During this process, the departure of artists from his labels brought the company's financial difficulties to the surface.



Reported by Kang Kyung-yoon | Produced by SBS Entertainment News
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